lost.

i honestly have no idea what am i supposed to feel and think right now. i absolutely hate how i always lose focus whenever the exam period is here and right now i'm just very lost........ i tried to study for my history exam today but i really just can't and don't want to put the information in my head and i really have a huge thought of dropping the subject but is it worth it?????????? and i'm also receiving my chinese results tomorrow and i've absolutely no idea how to feel about it. what if the result is way lower than what i expected?????????? i really hate being a disappointment to people who believe in me, honestly. i'm just....... lost.